Getting Ready to Let Go

Preparing for this journey was an exercise of mental, physical, and emotional fortitude. There were so many possible scenarios to run through. There were so many things to do. I had to cancel recurring subscriptions, turn off my cable/wifi, get my car checked out (ultimately rotating my tires and getting a new serpentine belt), hire movers and find storage, figure out how to get prescriptions (both mine and Boston’s) while on the road, sort out a packing method for easy unpacking and repacking, purchase door stoppers to help me feel safe in unknown places, and make sure I would have everything I need to continue teleworking full time. Y’all, that’s just the highlights. I was completely consumed with getting everything ready for this endeavor.

But the goal of the whole endeavor was to take a break from that – reset, do some living, let go. The irony wasn’t lost on me that to take a step back from “adulting”, I was in hyper-super-warp-speed adulting. I wanted to let go, but there were things I had to do first.

That realization has been something I’ve been musing over.

How often do I feel like I need to let go of something, but I need to figure it all out before I do? I’m gonna say all the dadgum time, folks.

The problem really begins though when you don’t get time to think about what you need to let go…in one moment, you just have to do it…and I have to tell you, it’s an interesting feeling to ask yourself if you’re ready to let go as you sit on the floor with the rug already pulled out from under you.

I’ve been thinking about this a lot…and realizing how much I struggle with this. Even if I know something…or, let’s be honest, someone, isn’t right for me, I actually need to be ready to let go.

Because what I’m finding is that when I’m caught on the floor, I probably hang onto things a little tighter, and for a little bit longer, than I actually should…I’m nearly white-knuckled with my grip on that rug, daring anyone and everyone to try and pull it away again.

I’m working on that.

But the beautiful thing is that I know the moment will come. I know the moment will be there when I wake up, or hear a certain song on the radio, or see pumpkin waffles at Trader Joe’s and I’ll just know that now, I’m ready to let go.  

Several months ago I listened to a sermon by Dick Foth and he said something so profound that I audibly exhaled during the service. “Letting go propels us into joy.”

It’s similar to the adage I grew up with in the church: “let go, and let God.” Sure. Yes. That does sound amazing. But I also think we can “let God” while acknowledging that there are some lessons to be learned, some thoughts to think, and some processes to work through…and just know that in His timing, we’ll be at peace with it all.

That’s where I’m at right now…still getting ready to let go on a few things, but feeling wonderful about already releasing others.

Road Trip Updates

I just wrapped up an incredible first month on the road in Florida with stops in Orlando, Auburndale, and Pensacola. Florida will always be a special place to me (#castmemberforlife) and hello, there’s sand, sun, and water which is more than the District was offering last month. 😉

Boston and I are currently exploring Louisiana and I intend to eat my way through this state. So. Much. Good. Food.

Current Mileage: 2038 miles

States Stayed in So Far: Florida, Louisiana

Foodie Shoutouts: The campfire latte at Jitterbug, the cuban eggroll and collard greens at the Brack Shack, and the shrimp tacos at Flounder’s Chowder House

Cool Things: Bay Bluffs Park

Huge thank you to Darli for hosting me, to Amanda for swinging by Darli’s, and to Bethany for joining Boston and I in Pensacola! Another huge thank you to everyone who commented, messaged, liked, and followed after the announcement of this little blog. I am always humbled by the wonderful people in my life and I hope you know that your support truly does mean the world to me!

Love,
Holly

P.S. Here’s a little video reel with some of the highlights from Florida!

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